Beating myself Up

Today was a good day and an Alexander day all rolled into one. If you don't know what an Alexander day is you must read Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day by Judith Viorst. Today seemed to be one of those days that put me in tears and had me questioning if I was a good mom. ( I won't give you my whole story). I hate those days. I have really been struggling with my kids lately. I have the two best kids in the world. My four year old is so smart (I know everyone thinks their kid is smart). She asks questions like what is a slave and says that her babies are communicating when she has them close to each other. She is very curious. She is vivacious and full of life. And then there is B (23 months). He is funny. He is silly. He has the BEST laugh. He is persistent. He likes to figure things out. And yet these two great kids do not listen! Charlie, B it is lunch time come inside (7 times). Sit down in your chair (10 times). And still nothing... Do not throw food at the table. (food goes flying). It seems that my kids (great kids) just don't listen and especially to me. We went to D's parents today. His sister was there. Her kids always seem to mind and are quiet and still.


Mine are CRAZY!!! (And please don't think that I don't love this about them but somedays --like today-- it just leaves me beating myself up) At Dusty's mom's today she allowed us to play cards with grandpa. Thank you for that. She was "watching" the kids. They began playing in the mud. Okay, they were having fun! A LOT Of fun. I guess I can' t get too mad even though both kids have used all their clean clothes already. This will be the second time they have had to change clothes today. They are covered. I grabbed my camera and headed outside to capture their joy only to have Charlie throw mud at me. So, here is my dilemma. I begin to get frustrated with the fact that my kids have not listened all day and now, she was disrespectful and threw mud at me. None of the other kids threw mud on thier parents, just mine. Dusty on the other hand sees this as a great thing. "Amy, this tells me that you play with her. I don't think she is being disrespectful at all."



I really wish I could agree with him. I really wish I were not at the point today that I cried and beat myself up b/c my kids don't listen and Charlie threw mud at me. But on a good note, don't those three just look like they are having the BEST time.