I think that I have decided that 2011 is a year of stretching for me.  I don't like being outside my comfort zone. I guess that is why it is called a comfort zone.

Things are crazy right now.  I feel like my head is just below the water right now.  I can step on my tip toes most day and catch a breath but that is about it.  School started Thursday and while we had a great first 2 days I feel that I am WAY behind.  I always send out welcome cards to this kids before the first day.  Not this year.  I always call the parents the first day of school and let them know how the day went.  Not this year.  I always have my friendship game out the first day and to the second set of parents.  Not this year.

And now, I am just beside myself.  I am a rule follower.  I like rules. I do NOT like to break the rules. And, I would never asked for the rules to be changed b/c of me.  And yet, I feel as if that is just what I am doing.  I am not one to "buck" the system or ask for special consideration.  And yet, that is just what I want done.  How can someone who so strongly believes in rules and policies want something like that to be changed or amended.  I have a HUGE decision to make over the next few weeks.  I am not really sure what the decision will be.  I don't really like very many of the options.
1) I can walk away for  a few years.  (THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT!!!)
 2) I can step away for a while.  Trying to keep plugged in as best I can.  But this pulls me away from my support system that I so DESPERATELY need right now.
3) I can go with it.  Even though I feel so strongly that this is NOT the right decision.

So I do what I do best.  I pray.
Dear LORD,
Give me the wisdom to see which path is right.  Give me the strength  to do what you see fit.  Help me to discern what is a trial  I need to go through to strengthen my faith and what is spiritual warfare.  If this "bump" is just to knock Dusty and I off the path then give me the peace I will need to just "go with it."  Lord,  help me to follow your word and guidance.
Amen